On With The Show....

I've had the idea for this post for quite a long time. It took me longer than I expected to put it together but I think it turned out to be pretty good. Hope you all enjoy it as well. - xFRETx

Empty spaces - what are we living for
Abandoned places - I guess we know the score
On and on, does anybody know what we are looking for...
Another hero, another mindless crime
Behind the curtain, in the pantomime
Hold the line, does anybody want to take it anymore

The show must go on,
The show must go on
Inside my heart is breaking
My make-up may be flaking
But my smile still stays on.

Whatever happens, I'll leave it all to chance
Another heartache, another failed romance
On and on, does anybody know what we are living for?
I guess I'm learning, I must be warmer now
I'll soon be turning, round the corner now
Outside the dawn is breaking
But inside in the dark I'm aching to be free

The show must go on
The show must go on
Inside my heart is breaking
My make-up may be flaking
But my smile still stays on

My soul is painted like the wings of butterflies
Fairytales of yesterday will grow but never die
I can fly - my friends

The show must go on
The show must go on
I'll face it with a grin
I'm never giving in
On - with the show -

I'll top the bill, I'll overkill
I have to find the will to carry on
On with the -
On with the show -
The show must go on...

Credits:
Eyeliner: LaVie - Guyliner Tintable
Hat: *~*Illusions*~* "Astaire" Top Hat
Hair: -DC- Toby - Black (Red Dip)
Jacket: [NSD] Napolean Jacket Homme-Red
Boots: DSD Lazy Boots Shoe Version Bootcut
Belt: +grasp+ Fleur de Lis Leather Belt
Pants: A:S:S - Seude Pants - Black

Note: The tattoos, eyes, skin and shape I have decided not to disclose because I feel that I've tried making my look unique and don't want to have a million twins on the grid.

Just An Update

For those of you who are wondering what happened to Fret or why there haven't been any posts here, is because I have moved my little corner of the grid to a new spot. If you'd like to follow me and my adventures you can catch me at http://www.madnessislikegravity.net and let me know you're reading!

What does this mean for Inventing Fretwerk?

Well the answer is: because I don't have the heart to pull it even if the events described on this blog are a life no longer lived..I do have great memories and have decided to keep them. I've also decided going forward that I'll use this space as a place to post some of my favorite choices in fashion. Does that mean it's changing to a fashion blog? No not necessarily. There's a million and one fashion blogs out there and there really doesn't need to be one from me. I like reading other people's blogs and they've got the knack for it that I don't think I can simply put a spin on.

For those of you who have been coming here and have been enriched, enlightened, and entertained by my tales and life experiences on the grid...I humbly thank you. It means so much to me that you would take time out of whatever you were doing to see what was going on in such a small piece of one big pie.

Carry on, and I'll see you over at M.I.L.G.!

xFRETx

On A Completely Unrelated Note...

Some of my previous blogs have been a little under the weather seeming and I was just weathering storms it seems. (That doesn't make any bit of fucking sense, does it?) I'm going to come back soon with some things that aren't so moody or glum...sometimes art isn't all fun and cutesy.

I'm preparing to write an update with some of the stuff that I've been doing lately (which isn't a whole lot of much). It'll just beat posting blogs of lyrics with my visual stylings accompanying them. I was never known for it when I started this and I don't want to become known for it either. There's only so much of one thing you can do.

In the last little while I've learned things and became reminded of some pretty bad things about myself: I can be a jerk, I can be selfish, whether I want to or not...I have the ability to hurt people. In return I can just as easily be hurt. I don't wear armor like Iron Man and I'm not invincible or perfect in any capacity. I become too attached and I'm passionate about things in a way that some might not deem healthy. As I once wrote in the section about myself on my plurk (that I've sadly disabled) is that I bleed just like everyone else.

Time heals, this much is true.

Perhaps the way I love things is toxic or poisonous; I feel like I ruin everything I touch. There's no one that I could possibly pin it on but myself. When I become emotionally withdrawn it's on no one but me. I just hope that someday I get it right or the road is only going to get that much shorter and darker.

For anyone who reads this blog, I'm sure you find me to be an array of things. Demented might be a good word to use if I were looking from the outside in. I thank you at least for taking the time to look at the little piece of the interwebs that I've claimed stake in.

Miketh Fretwerk may be down, but he's not out. You don't bet against Fret...

Until Anon,

xFRETx

A Life Is Not A Life...

Sometimes in our lives on the grid or even in the ones outside of it we are able to meet special people. They become so engrained within you and such a part of the fiber of your being that when something happens, whether it be tragic or just something else that you are impacted by it greatly. This post is dedicated to that and to all those people out there that relate to this or have someone this relates to.

Maybe the person I mean for this may or may not see it in some form or another...

Crew (aka Safetysuit) - Mailbox

I check the mailbox right on time
I was overjoyed to find
A letter here from you
You told me all about your day
And I can't begin to say
How much I'm missing you right now

Some bubblegum stuck again inside your hair
You know I wish I could be there
To help you pull it out again
I know sometimes I feel so far away
But you always hear me say
That I am so in love with you

I am so in love with you, my darling
So in love with you, my darling
I don't want to live my life without you
And I don't want to breathe a breath alone
Because a breath is not a breath
And a life is not a life without you

I wonder if I'm ever in your dreams
'Cause you know it always seems
You are with me as I sleep
I always want to right where you are
And I don't care how long or far
I have to go to be with you

 Cause I am so in love with you, my darling
So in love with you, my darling
I don't want to live my life without you
And I don't want to breathe a breath alone
Because a breath is not a breath
And a life is not a life without you alone
Without you alone

I wonder if you're thinking of me now
Wonder if you're wondering how
We made it through it all
Will I make it through today?
All that I can say is that I'm so in love
I am so in love
I am so in love with you

So in love with you, my darling
So in love with you, my darling
I don't want to live my life without you
And I don't want to breathe a breath alone
Because a breath is not a breath
And a life is not a life without you

I am so in love with you
So in love with you

xFRETx

In The Background...

Everything is quiet since you're not around
And I live in the numbness now
In the background

I do the things we did before
I walk Haight Street to the store
And they say where's that crazy girl
You don't get drunk on red wine and fight no more
I don't see you anymore since the hospital

The plans I make still have you in them
Cause you come swimming into view
And I'm hanging on your words
Like I always used to do
The words they use so lightly
I only feel for you
I only know because I carry you around
In the background
I'm in the background

Words they come and memories all repeat
I lift your head while they change the hospital sheets
And I would never lie to you no
I would never lie to you no
I felt you long after we were through, we were through

The plans I make still have you in them
Cause you come swimming into view
And I'm hanging on your words
Like I always used to do
The words they use so lightly
I only feel for you
I only know because I carry you around
In the background

Cause I felt you long after we were through
Well you come swimming into view
And I'm hanging on your words
Like I always used to do
The words they use so lightly
I only feel to you
I only know because
I'm way I'm way in the background
I'm in the background

So Just Leave Me Here...

Why am I thinking of you today?
You should be millions of miles away by now
It's funny how it hurts me this way
It's not the words that you say
But that you believe them

Fucked up as I ever was
Make sure no one sees
Me on my knees
Clinging to my rage, just because
It's easier, to believe in
More than

These lies and secrets
Hopes and regrets
It's just the way we are
No, I want to believe you
You'll only leave, too
Just the way we are
It's just the way we are

Getting good at saying goodbye
I feel a little less, each time they walk away
Don't even stop to wonder why
It's not the reason that stays
But that it's over
Leaving

More lies and secrets
Hopes and regrets
It's just the way we are
No, I want to believe you
You'll only leave, too
Just the way we are
It's the the way we are

What am I reaching for?
You don't love me anymore
So just leave me here

With our lies and secrets
Hopes and regrets
It's just the way we are
No, I want to believe you
You'll only leave, too
Just the way we are
Yes, I want to believe you
I know you'll leave, too
Just the way we are
It's just the way we are
We are

Just The Way We Are - Ben Moody

I Saw The Strain Creep In

Know a man, his face seems pulled and tense
Like he's riding on a motorbike in the strongest winds
So i approach with tact
Suggest that he should relax
but he's always moving much too fast

Said he'll see me on the flipside
On this trip he's taken for a ride
He's been taking too much on
There he goes with his perfectly unkept clothes

There he goes...

He's yet to come back
but i've seen his picture
It doesn't look the same up on the rack
We go way back

I wonder about his insides
It's like his thoughts are too big for his size
He's been taken... where, I don't know?
Off he goes with his perfectly unkept hope

And there he goes...

And now I rub my eyes, for he has returned
Seems my preconceptions are what should have been burned
For he still smiles...
and he's still strong
Nothing's changed, but the surrounding bullshit that has grown

And now he's home
and we're laughing like we always did
My same old, same old friend

Until a quarter-to-ten
I saw the strain creep in
He seems distracted and I know just what is gonna happen next
Before his first step
He's off again

Off He Goes - Pearl Jam